Dec 31, 2009
Dec 20, 2009
当你把一切看得太清楚
两面不是人
Dec 17, 2009
谢谢梦璐
May 12, 2009
噢噢噢,本学期目标GPA 3.70!!
昨日的化学已经无力回天……我一向是考不好期末考的……不过还好占的比例不是特别大,15%吧……不过可以肯定的是,一个4.0已经丢了……
今晚的地理,嗯……就看选择题能不能错在10个以内了,不过也依然只是3.7的界限了。
微积分就不说了,倒霉的期中考,掉了一页卷子让我考那个补考的卷子,很难诶…………估计4.0也是很悬的事情……
谁说统计很简单来着?谁说那个课就是拿来OVERLOAD的……依然还是有300多页的书诶……而且有的概念还是挺绕的。。嗯……就看明晚考完CAL2的功夫了……
哎呀呀……终于要考完了,可是考完当天还必须搬东西到校外,又是一大堆活计……暑假的课程也还要再去交钱……
唯一一件还是就是下学期就可以申请Social security number了……还可以到风景优美的mountain view食堂打工……
那天吃饭路过下学期要住的宿舍,发现旁边就是1970成立BINGHAMTON自然保护区……怪不得有一大片湿地呢……要了一张地图,发现这一篇居然有多余200种鸟类…………哈,老妈在这就HIGH了~
May 6, 2009
2009,即将过去一半了……
这样的日子还能持续多久呢?
这个学期马上就要结束了,意味着,我来美国,即将一年了。4月26号那天,我还记得,那是老爸上京陪我签证的日子。一晃一年就这么过去了……
期末来了,图书馆爆满……不过周六那个学校里开了一个临时的游乐场,类似嘉年华一样的东西,就在图书馆前面,所有的东西免费乘坐,好多人在玩,好多人在HIGH啊……一年一次,嗯,明年我一定也去参加。
大家现在见面第一句话问的就是:how many finals do you have?唉……可见期末是多么的蹉跎……好不容易轻松了,回家的日子也到了……希望那个猪猪流感不要影响我的回国期程…………
好像我的日志越来越趋于流水帐了,也不知道在写什么。
上周看过一个泰国的恐怖片叫什么来着……就是今年获了一大堆奖的那个……最近看了好多恐怖片,其实是因为自己比较害怕看恐怖片,所以越是要盯着看,直到看到什么都不害怕为止(这是不是也是一种心理呢?) 那个片子拍的不错,导演的构思不错,写的是一个精神分裂的医生,然后关于伦理的婚外恋……泰国的恐怖片越拍越好了,其实真正恐怖的不是那些个虚幻的鬼神,而是人自己。如果自己做了违背道德的事情,那么也就怪不得被惩罚了。
还有一个杨千嬅的《三更二之饺子》,拍得也不错,女的为了保住青春,什么样的东西都敢吃,什么样的事情都敢做,其实到最后,恶人做尽了,自己的努力还是付诸东流……另外一个莫文蔚演的泰国恐怖片,也是讲的一样的道理……生命之轮一直在转动,有时候人的力量是不能轻易去打破自然规律的,人的生老病死,就像自然界中一切的生命一样。
好了RACHEL来找我聊天了~~~
Apr 17, 2009
期待夏天!
上周在室外打网球,今天穿着短袖出去阳光明媚的感觉,就像是从北极回到了人间……想想这地方还真是冷的可以。4月底了都快,才接近20摄氏度,而且下周还有两次要回到3度。我的羽绒服穿了以后说是今年最后一次洗,可是都又按耐不住刺骨的寒风一次又一次的掏出来穿……
好了,回去之前在拍点照片,自纽约以后就没有动过相机了:)
原来哪里选课都是像战场……人多资源少。这个纠结……好过的课都被选没了,不好过的课不敢去冒然尝试。。。体育课除了太极拳爬山以外差不多都没了……我的舞蹈课和生物课时间冲突……
春假把我从现实拉去了美好的享受生活,开学又把我从美日子拖回了现实。考试啊考试,就快结束了……
好在,天气开始转热了,再也不会出门就冻得哆嗦了~~
Apr 7, 2009
王佳及其宿舍的检讨书
在 3 月 26 日 学校纠察队组织的宿舍卫生抽查中,由于在宿舍饲养小仓鼠违反了学生手册《南方医科大学学生公寓管理规定(试行)》第五条第六款,我们宿舍被纠察队通报批评并于网上公示。这一事件对我们第二临场医学院造成了不良影响,更没有体现出我们大二学生应有的成熟稳重。为此我们 522 宿舍全体社员经集体讨论决定做出以下检讨,希望能够得到大家的原谅和帮助。
在 宿舍饲养宠物是学生手册《南方医科大学学生公寓管理规定(试行)》第五条第六款上明令禁止的行为。我们宿舍没有认真学习学生手册,没有觉察到在宿舍饲养宠 物是违法乱纪的行为。作为大二的学生竟然还没有对学生手册做到了如指掌,这真是令我们感到惭愧、内疚与抱歉。综合上述原因,我们宿舍全体社员经集体讨论决 定要认真学习学生手册,贯彻落实手册中的每一项规定,不再因为无知而触犯学校的纪律。
为 了这件事,队长还在百忙之中抽出时间,千里迢迢从广州乘车颠簸两个小时来到顺德校区来和我们进行一次深入的思想交流,队长语重心长的教导我们:“没有品味 的人才会饲养老鼠,有品味的人饲养一头大象或者熊猫。你们这个年龄是学习的年龄,不是养宠物的年龄,养宠物是贵妇人该做的事。”我们恍然大悟,队长继续教 诲我们:“养仓鼠并不是真正的善良,虽然它也是一条生命,但是它身上有很多虫子的!”我们顿时犹如醍醐灌顶,如今正在学习寄生虫的我们深知仓鼠身上携带着 许多病原体,队长更举出一个惨烈的事实:“记得 04 年,那是非典肆虐的时期,广大的白衣天使正在与病魔进行一场没有硝烟的战争,然而此时,却有一名同学捡了一只小鸟带回宿舍,引起了巨大的恐慌,同学们都不敢回宿舍就寝,唉 ~ 这 是一个多么惨痛的教训啊!”啊!队长是多么心系着我们的健康啊!相比之下,我们的思想觉悟是多么低啊!我们心中悔恨交加,万分悲痛,决心回去就处置仓鼠。 这时,队长仿佛看透了我们的心思,言道:“仓鼠虽然也是一条生命,但是它给我们的健康带来了极大的威胁,还是应当处置的,你们就挖个坑把它埋了吧,如果良 心上过意不去,就给它立个碑。”队长的话深深的烙印在我们的心中,当天下午我们就按照队长的指示把仓鼠处置了。
更 重要的是这次事件给我们第二临床医学院抹了黑。作为二临的一份子深知自己的言行代表着二临的形象,一些小小的细节就能影响我们学院的光辉形象。我们二临经 过不懈努力好不容易在学校里有了些影响力。我们没能够给二临的建设增光添彩、锦上添花,却做了一些破坏二临形象、降低二临品味的事。
经过这次事件我们深知在学校生活要遵守各级各类规章制度,认真听从队长指示,从今天起做一个高尚的人,一个纯粹的人,一个有道德的人,一个脱离了低级趣味的人,一个有益于人民的人。
2009年4月6日
522宿舍
亲爱的,你们太有才了,不过我看看就知道哪些是你写的,哈哈~~~
春假春假~
窝在宿舍让人发霉的日子开始喽,不过春假过后,忙完这个学期就结束了……真快啊……去年刚到这的一点一滴还仿佛发生在昨天一样。BINGHAMTON真是冷的可以,4月份了,居然还有4-6摄氏度的温度,4月了啊。不过好像两天没有出门,外面的草地就绿了。看来植物的生长和温度是有直接的关系的,只要气温升高,树就不会落叶,常绿。只要气温降低,树叶自动就落地了。就像四季如春的昆明,那个树,一直都是绿的……
记得好像很久以前我就说冰屯的春天来了……可是叫是这么叫,现在山里的树,才一点一点的绿起来。
等待爬后山的日子……希望我回去之前还有机会去爬后山……啊,绿油油美丽的后山,我什么时候才能来呢?
哈哈,姐姐的日志最终是更新的比我还快啦……每次都让我笑的喷饭。。可爱的哥俩~
Apr 3, 2009
shooting happend just near us
Binghamton is such a small and beautiful city. It is the "tragedy day" on Binghamton's history. We just struggle our mind hard but still cannot understand why the gunman was so crazy to do such an idiocy. Did he actually solve his problem? He just killed him self. So sick..
Mar 29, 2009
春假即将来临!!!
哈哈哈哈……
老爸老妈就要见到我咯……
我也要见到他们咯~~~
BINGO~
话说上个星期五,LATE NIGHT BINGHAMTON,居然玩了4个小时的BINGO,导致我现在听到BINGGO都觉得想吐了……还好我们这一桌SHIMAO得了一包小奖……去玩的人那个多啊……奖品丰厚的有点离谱,手提电脑,I POD TOUCH,GIUTA PLAYER之类的……唉……最后那个LAP TOP我只差3个就BINGO了……
还有毛巾…………哈哈……
Mar 16, 2009
这周好多了
我的微积分TEST就不提了,倒霉的事都让我给碰上了,补考的那个卷子把我给做晕了……要命的是我们班是年级上最强的,一半以上是高分…………我们老师给高兴坏了,一个巨强效率超高的印度穆斯林女强人……不过我期末还是有机会把分给补回来的……只是最后两次考试得加油喽。。
说一说做饭,最近发现食堂的饭越来越难吃了,已经到了一个难以下咽的程度。其实不是因为他们越做越难吃了,其实有段时间我已经觉得这里的食物很好吃了。归其原因,是周末自己做饭的结果,吃惯了那个排骨汤炖白菜或者是炸土豆,还有稀饭咸菜。。那个中间夹一大堆CHEESE的鸡块真是令人发指。。对了,其实要说的是,我决定每周一菜,就是每周尝试一个菜。前两周的结果还不错,虽然有一次油放少了把鸡蛋煎糊了,居然把那个FIRE ALAERT给弄响了,警车呼呼的来了,问我们是不是在做OMLET。。不过这也是很正常的事情,中国人炒菜油烟比较大,何况是我不小心把蛋饼弄糊了一阵烟,当然就把警报给招响了。不过警察也是闲着没事干整天开车小车绕校园,让他也来看看咱做的中国菜。。
话说,这两次做菜都是凭着映像来的,也就是凭着对以前老爸老妈做饭的记忆来的。发现自己最擅长的还是做土豆……弥勒的那个小摊上我最喜欢的土豆就是那么先煮后炸的,那天实践了一下,再拌了个辣酱,唉……太好吃了……还有排骨汤煮白菜,呵呵云南人的做法……不过的确是很好吃,我又吃到了久违的汤泡饭……这周少了个土豆排骨,其实就是葱姜蒜香菜酱油胡椒粉糖和醋往那一扮,不过我觉得是吃出了我妈做的菜的味道……赞一个…………
这边最便宜的肉是大排骨和大鸡腿……4块钱可以买10块大骨头,或者4只大鸡腿。好像美国人不吃那种骨头特多的肉……鸡腿看起来是很大很嫩很新鲜,可是我还是没去买,原因总觉得这边的鸡不知道是怎么喂出来的,莫非2个月给崔成胖猪型的?呃……
菜是相当的贵,一颗大白菜3块钱,记得假期里大家就是每次煮的时候数着菜叶放的,一科菜4个人省着吃一周,一天平均一人不超过2片,或者直接扔到电饭煲里煮菜稀饭……想想真是有意思……
啊,一提吃就没得完,民以食为天。
Mar 14, 2009
最近没有更新
微积分二真是和一不一样,我去考的时候估计是兴奋的过了头,那个粗心呀。老天也给我开了个玩笑,让我的卷子比别人少了一页……(是他们本来就印少了一页)。本来以为这样的话可以重考(其实想重考),结果人家只让我去考一下我掉了的那一页……化学换了个教授,考的全是他讲的东西,和书都不沾边,可是他上课连老美都不清楚他在讲什么………………我一去就忍不住走神……
唯一一件好事是下学期可以和三个老美住一个ARPRTMENT了,而且是单人间,有一个蛮大的厨房和客厅。经验看来,这是一件很开心的事……那么抢手的房子,最后居然还是申请到了,感谢MONI帮我牵线搭桥……感谢感谢……………… 我爱MONI!
依然纠结的是我可能大四之前修不完我要上的专业课……或者大三之前修不完考试要求上的课……回国回国,终于可以回国了。。。WEEKDAYS的忙碌已经让我忘记了日期在走,想起来的都是上周末发生的事情,感觉一周只是一天……前天是上个周末……
感谢陪伴在我身边支持我的所有人!
也许有事情值得一提,但是我不想去提,也不知道该怎么说,我从来都不觉得我的选择会是正确的,只是让我忍不住选了而已。
生活在继续,无论你怎么样,太阳还是每天东升西落,地球还是绕个不停,山上的草和树还是在一点点变绿,穿皮鞋出去的那天还是会下老大的雨,我们少了一个小时,又变回夏至时间了,和中国时差变回12个小时,大多数时候,我醒着的时候,老爸老妈还是在睡觉……
Mar 6, 2009
Feb 8, 2009
日子这么一天一天过去
我想吃饺子……不行明天元宵一定要吃到饺子………………
I TOUCH还真是贵,不过挺好的,科技源于生活,有无线网的地方就好。啊我认真起来也是一个完美主义者………………我2月份的日程安排又是一个满满当当。16号放一天假,华盛顿的生日,好,怎么没有多几个华盛顿多放几天呢……
Feb 1, 2009
开学一周
最近的日子过得还不错,貌似许多事情要处理。需要多去GYM锻炼锻炼,瘦身运动不是靠控制食物的……啊食物啊……我的天堂……转眼就到2月份了,这学期的四门课虽然是难易搭配着选的,可是还是觉得足够的TOUGH了,已经没法让我再去参加什么志愿者活动之类的……自从纽约回来以后,清闲的日子一去不复返……这么看一年就快过去了,我有收获么?有吧。一言难尽。我在改变么?当然。无意识中发现自己已经和原来不一样了。还好就是,我的DUMP FRIENDS们,唉,都是些损友……
盘点一下最近看过的电影:非诚勿扰,桃花运,十全九美,梅兰芳,画皮,海角七号,爱情呼叫转移2,THE UNBORN,卡道阴,美发师,发条橙,低俗小说,春光乍泄,……真晕,居然有那么多……可是只有两部是美国片子,其中一部是在冰屯的电影院看的……看来真是给憋坏了,那天睡梦中听到中央电视台一套春晚前的广告,止不住的欣喜和激动……想起了外婆笑眯眯看着叫我的样子……想起了年三十锅里煮着的鱼……于是一大家子坐在了摄像头面前……
Jan 22, 2009
我的论文
Chang Xu
Final Paper
Professor Micklus
Jan. 23, 2008
Comparison of Two Romantic Poets in American and China
-Emily Elizabeth Dickinson and Xu Zhimo
Emily Elizabeth Dickinson is a major American Romantic writer in nineteenth-century. Xu Zhimo is one of the greatest Romantic Poets in China during the beginning of twentieth-century. Both as outstanding Romantic writers through their period, they have similarities in expressing their own emotions. Love, death, are among the various themes in both Dickinson’s and Zhimo’s poems. They are both good at capturing peek moments in life.
Both Dickinson and Zhimo’s poems are unique for the era in which they wrote. “Dickinson is widely acknowledged as one of the founders of American poetry, an innovative pre-modernist poet as well as a rebellious and courageous woman.” (Cambridge Companion to Emily Dickinson) According to “The Recognition of Emily Dickinson”, “To some, Miss Dickinson was more easily a “modern” poet than a nineteenth-century one. To others she was of her own time and heritage but also clearly beyond it.” “Emerson called her “the Poetry of the Portfolio,”-something produced absolutely without the thought of publication, and solely by way of expression of the writer’s own mind.” (qtd. in Thomas) Her poems contain short lines and often utilize slant rhyme as well as unconventional capitalization.
While Xu Zhimo, who is generally recognized as the representative of romantic Chinese poet of his generation, is a pioneer in promoting the form of modern Chinese poetry. Kai-yu Hsu says, “The kind of starry-eyed idealism he embraced was expressed in his almost childlike faith in the validity of absolute individualism: to assert oneself, to realize oneself, to find one-sublime and the ecstatic; something above the ordinary yet not of the other world.” His poems are frank, specialized in iconoclastic rejection of conventional morality.
Fractured love is one of their favorite topics. In Dickinson’s case, her love of earthy things was a major deterrent: “It is hard for me to give up the world” .
Miss Dickinson says, (J640, P317)
I cannot live with You-
It would be Life-
And life is over there-
Behind the Shelf…
So We must meet apart-
You there-I-Here
With just the Door ajar
That Oceans are- and Prayer-
And that White Sustenance-
Despair-
As Hu Shi recognized Zhimo, “His (Zhimo’s) poetry expresses the conflict between the ideals of love, freedom, beauty and the world.”
In Zhimo’s poem “Chance”,
I am a cloud in the sky
A chance shadow on the wave of your heart.
Don’t be surprised,
Or too elated:
In an instant I shall vanish without trace.
We meet on the sea of dark night,
You on your way, I on mine.
Remember if you will,
Or, better still, forget
The light exchanged in this encounter.
They both illustrate the pain of separation is what finally lives on. They would like to use small “breaks” to illustrate the “fractured” relationships. In Dickinson’s poem, she uses three dashes to describe the broken relationship between people. In Zhimo’s poem, he uses short sentences to make us take a breath in upset.
However, they have different attitude toward the fractured relationship with love. In Dickinson’s poems, she explains a feeling of taking over her own soul in the relationship as a female. While Zhimo, is more sacrificing towards the “imperfect love”.
Dickinson says, (J754, P369)
My Life had stood- a Loaded Gun-
In Corner- till a Day
The Owner passed- identified-
And carried Me away-
And now We roam in Sovereign Woods-
And now We hunt the Doe-
…
Though I than He- may longer live
He longer mush- than I-
For I have but the power to kill
Without – the power to die-
She admits the fracture between even the fondest lovers, and finds a way to be herself, rather than destroying herself or dying for love. Fred D. White says, “Faced with the resulting isolation and finitude, the individual must direct his or her own life with great deliberateness, despite the fact that there is no certainty of behavior, no divinely sanctioned moral code.” (The Cambridge Companion to Emily Dickinson)
Zhimo says in “This is a coward’s world”,
…
Follow me, my love,
To abandon this world
And die for our love!
I will hold your hand,
My love, follow me;
…
An immense ocean with its unlimited gleaming white,
Let’s be in love and forever free!
He acquires his faith in love, and would rather die for love. He has an unreserved surrender of himself to love. Kai-yu Hsu says, “In his praise of love and life seen in their most beautiful moments, Xu Zhimo time and again betrays his feeling of futility about both and with a sigh sinks back to find comfort in Hardy’s Stoic pessimism.”
Another similar topic they choose is death, “It must be observed that the number of poems by Miss Dickinson on this subject is one of the most remarkable things about her.”(Conrad Aiken)
Dickinson mentions “death” in several of her poems, “I died for Beauty” (J449, P216); “Because I could not stop for Death” (J712, P350); “I heard a Fly buzz-when I died-”(J465, P223). “Going to the heaven! I don’t know when- pray do not ask me how!” (J79, P41) “Death sets a Thing significant/ The Eye had hurried by…” (J360, P170) “I could not stop for death”(The Chariot)
Death, and the problem of life after death, obsessed her. She seems to have thought of it constantly- she died all her life. She reflects upon the details comprising a typical day in her life. According to Kierkegaard, “Death is earnest, gives life force as nothing else does; it makes one alert as nothing else does.” Dickinson gives dramatic poignancy to the idea. The content of death in her poems has presented a typical Christian theme in them.
In Zhimo’s poem “Love’s inspiration”,
For a long time I have been gazing at death itself.
Since the day the bond of love was sealed in my heart
I have been gazing at death-
That realm of perpetual beauty; to death
I happily surrendered myself because
It is the birth of the brilliant and the free.
From that moment on I scorned my body
And even less did I care
For the floating glory of this life;
I longed to trust my breath to time
Even more infinite than it.
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This poem describes a cycle of birth and death. In Zhimo’s opinion, death is the peek moment in life. Death is not miserable when it becomes the perfect unity between spirit and reality. He is not afraid to think of dying and he even called it “easeful death” in another poem.
Emily Dickinson and Xu Zhimo are fundamental Romantic Writers in American and Chinese literature. They write poems about love and death, using their spontaneous inspiration expressing peek moments in life.
Works Cited
Blake, Caesar R, and Carlton F. Wells. The Recognition of Emily Dickinson- Selected Criticism Since 1890. U of Michigan P, 1964.
Joseph S. M. Lau & Howard Goldblatt, eds. The Columbia Anthology of Modern Chinese Literature second edition. U of Columbia P, 2007.
Hsu, Kai-yu. Twentieth Century Chinese Poetry an Anthology. Doubleday & Company, Inc., 1963.
Thomas H. Johnson. The Complete poems of Emily Dickinson. Little, Brown and Company, 1960.
Wendy Martin. The Cambridge Companion to Emily Dickinson. U Cambridge P, 2002.
